One Week

Doing well!  LOVE the 12 Steps book. I start the last chapter tonight.  It inspires me sooooo much!  I'll admit that there are things I don't think I will ever get to just because of the nature of my family.  My sugar cravings are GONE. I haven't really had any sugar.  One time I picked up a jelly bean someone had left on the counter and popped it in my mouth.  I immediately realized what I had done and spit it out.  Last night the Girl Scout Cookies (20 boxes) I had ordered a month and a half ago arrived :( :) Mixed feelings about that.  The kids chose to have them for FHE treat and someone left a half eaten one around. I ate it.  Out of sheer  habit.  I didn't really want any but I saw someone hadn't eaten it and...............what can I say, I'm a mother and tend to clean my children's plates to prevent waste.

I really REALLY want to do kefir again but I just cannot justify all the work, and the money and ALL that stinkin' kefir for one person (myself,) who doesn't necessarily love it yet.  I can work through it but the upkeep of those grains makes SOOOOO MUCH KEFIR that I throw a lot of it away.  I know kefir would significantly help my son with encopresis and eczema issues but I know I will never get him to drink or utilize it in a way that would be beneficial and the husband, who is in the pharmaceutical/health supplement chemist as a profession, just says to give him the probiotics that are in the fridge.........

I did, however, make homemade yogurt yesterday and hope that the kids that eat yogurt will like it. I had it for breakfast and thought it was delicious with some maple syrup and lemon essential oil.

I think I can do most of these steps about 95%.  Some maybe not that high.  But I'm tellin' ya it is sooooo hard to do it alone.  I will never be the fanatic.  I will eat sugar on occasion.  I will eat refined food on occasion. and I'm not going to tell my kids they can't have what's offered at the school (although it is EXTREMELY annoying to me).  I'm going to eat my homemade commercial yeast bread.  But I want soooo badly to be able to live primarily with better whole food habits.  That is where I struggle to find the "moderation" in all things or the right balance.  I know I will be different then most people.  In fact, I found it an honor when, at someone's home for dinner last week, they said I was "kind of a health junky." Boy!  That is an honor.  Really!

So doing well.  I think I might review a few things this week and write down thoughts and some things that I just am not willing to do at this point.  It really is not much.  (But yes, I do want to have a limited amount of semi-sweet chips in my granola once in a while! ;) )